Jie Ko

Hello James, 

How have you been?   As studying as usual, just came back from library.  First of all, I would like to thank you for knowing just how I feeling and trying to get ahold of me in time.   After calming down for few days, I decide to write you a mail in English and let you know why I  was so crazy that day.  It could be a long story, so be patience to take a look at it, all right?

After working for ages, I realize that attitude of living is totally difference between other people and I possibly as growing background of mine.  It was hard to detail which what was going on at that time.  At least one thing for sure is I was all by myself for the longest time during I was raised without being parents, so cold inside somehow.  I appreciated God giving me the chance to challenge the "unusual life" and thank for the gift of what I have now.  I tried hard to adapt myself over and over again.  Hoping to be able to feel that way which what I had lost before and I would like to say that I did it already in the short run. 

I was really sorry to bother you last time and you might thought it was hysterically funny.  After what seemed like hours that day, I felt myself was an idiot because there was no need to fuss.  A little bit of unbelievable when I got the news about he had passed the exam, suddenly, there was a blank came to my mind or it seemed like a crow fly across in front of my head and the sound just liked A!!A!!A!!A!!(that kind of bad thing happened in chinese.)  The first word out loud of my mouth was STILL!! 

Basically, I am a girl who has mind of my own.  The personality of mine is unique but eccentric because it can tell from I was skipping school all the time.  HA! HA!  I know what I want and go for it not only just learns from the class, I learn everything everywhere and everyone, and you know that.  I don't let anyone dictate what I should or shouldn't do, not let anyone stand in my way.  So that means I am unwilling to get behind others, obviously.  In fact, I take my boyfriend or some people around me who I interest as a competitor because that would improve myself to be better and more.   That is why I was so crazy about, too.  Of course, There was no doubt that what my boyfriend has done was all he deserved.   He really studied hard for his test and had been scheduled for two hours after finishing work everyday since he determined to study there.  I still remember the first time I told him to get the diploma of NUCK in the end of learning.  It was really all freaking him out.  “That was impossible for me, I thought you was only kidding, I was not that good” he said.  Meanwhile, I felt that as soon as I find some space does not make me hurl which if he keep saying that shit.  Then I still convinced him of how good he was and told him just gave himself a chance to do it, no matter what happen in the end.  The true is he did it twice.   "Anything could be happen if  you follow your dream, then all the world will conspire to help you"  this is what I read from a book names A Fable About Following Your Dream by Paulo Coelho.  I read all the book of the author and the words he wrote that is so amazing, it also inspire me somehow.  You should read it, you would love it. 

Most of people like our ages even older can not figure out what happen around and has no too much right notion to think about the truly meaningful in life.  They may just know about studies because of their work or to find another good job.  But the really truth is Generation have changed and we belong the “old one".  Some kind of event can not be judged by “old way"  In my personal opinion, the success may be stand for your  personality.  But in any case, I still hope it puts it's powerful to use and help more people who needs.  That is what success for me, you know, I was the person who needs that help when I was young.  I always say myself grown up with a heart broken to others.  HA! 

You are the special one who I have never met before.  That sort of personality on you attracts me sometimes and I also like the way you treated me as a family, close friend, sister when we get together.  The subject is always encouraging me "go for my dream and never give it up" that was what I have learned from you, too. 

Although I have not decided which where I am going to, I am still doing what I like everyday.  Having studied English for more than six years.  I resent my current level is not what I would like it to be.  Most people did tell me that I had very good pronunciation but that is not bit deal, you know.  All what I want is speaking fluently not like others said to me.  Unfortunately I still failed though.  I could be better if I force myself strictly, you know.  When I went to the library of Cheng Kung, the students there all concentrated on their studies, mean while I told myself that I won't give up, keep going, just wait and see. 

The only thing I know is taking a strong, don't be afraid and competing with myself because we have only one life to live.  Therefore we should try to live it well. The sentence ties me up some loose end in studying English.  It would be helpful for you I suppose, as bellow, The simplest and mot direct solution, requiring the fewest number of step, is usually the correct solution to any problem, by Albert Einstein.   If you can understand and control yourself quite well, you can live a more meaningful, happier life and I am sure that I know myself.  To face real life, both of us are the same, nothing different include all of people around the world.  Some people are just succeeds earlier than we, so what? In fact, we are both on the way, isn’t?  No matter what stations we are in, we always have to overcome in our life and the dream we deserves it.  So, for our success and GO! GO! GO! 

Luv. Amy